Randomness...

Heyyy. Soo, I had an asthma attack. And I was scared again. I hate the feeling of not being able to breathe. And I had no one to talk to about my fear. My brother doesn't answer any of my calls or texts. I don't really talk to most of the people I use to spend hours talking to. My frilly girls are amazing today. I love them some days. They are crazy. I ran into Miranda, Johnna, Stephani, and Amanda today at dollar scoop, it brightened my day. I've missed my friends.

In response...

I'm sick of her thinking she's the victim. I never did anything to her, and she has not stopped talking about me in like weeks. I have not even thought about her and neither have my wonderful, amazing friends. They are better than that. And I think her stupid blog was completely unnecessary, if she has something to say, say it to me. I'm sick of her blogging about me, it seems like her obsession. If she wants to resolve our issues then she'll make it happen, because in the history of our friendship, it was almost always me. And I love how my supposed friend tells her what I said. And don't deny it, it was almost word for word in her blog what I said. Also, other people need to stop talking about me, I'm sick of it. I never did anything that deserved what I'm getting.

Alx and Miranda, Miranda and Alx

Heyy. Day two. So I don't believe in love. I mean love can exist but I don't think theirs one person in the world for each person. But maybe their is just not one person for me, yet. I'm a generally happy person, but I get upset when I feel ignored. I hate feeling that way, I want to be important and paid attention to. Now, Alx and Miranda are the best people anyone will ever meet. They always have my back and they stand up for me. Like, the other day someone called me stupid, and I'm so far from stupid, and Miranda flipped on her. The girl ended up apologizing. It was the best. Alx helps me flip on people. Like I'll be yelling and she'll chime in and it'll be like a double assault. People should fear us when we're together. Moving here is the best decision I ever made, and yes it was my decision. I gave the okay to my mom and she moved us. She was going to wait till a graduated, but I loved it here to much to wait.

I made a blog.

I'm going to blog my life now, because I just think it's that damn interesting. Now I stopped contact with my so-called best friend. She says she's the happiest she's ever been, and seriously I'm happy for her. She deserves happiness. I'm just sorry I had to move away for her to feel that way. I guess in all reality I'm just not good enough for anyone. But that's fine, I'm perfectly happy being number one to myself. I have my new friends, who I just love. They make me happy, they come with little drama, and they have my back always. Back to so-called best friend (scbf) she says she's the most loyal person she knows. I don't believe this. Ever since she became scbf she has ditched me for someone else on several occasions. I guess to her I'll always be there no matter what she does. Which is actually true. If she reached out to me, and made an effort I'd forgive her and we could be friends again. This is because I'm loyal, and I would do anything for my friends. I'd walk through hell for them. My goal in life is to find someone who thinks I'm just as important as everyone else in their lives, because so far I'm always second. :/